Self-Talk and Vitiligo

By: Mary Aquino

Honestly who cares about others’ opinion of you? Your skin does not define you. You are beautiful. These are all phrases I wish I told myself back when my vitiligo began to spread and became a lot more visible than just small spots. When I was 9 years old, I was sitting in the computer lab with my friend and I showed her a new spot that had shown up after a fall but didn’t seem to leave. Her words never left my mind: “Wow, that’s kind of cool.” See, once I hit middle school, I didn’t associate myself with those words. I closed myself off from meeting new people and participating in big events for school, especially the ones outdoors. I went from being an extrovert to an introvert.

Now to make things worse I lived in Miami, Florida which means summer all year round. My classmates wanted to go to pool parties, the beach, play sports and I felt weird and out-of-place because I looked different. In the back of my head, I knew it was just skin and it wasn’t that bad but I wanted to look beautiful to others. Afterall, Miami is all about beauty and beach bodies, and I didn’t fit into any of these categories.

Instead these were the thoughts that flooded my mind. Would boys like me? Can I go to the pool? No, I look ugly and everyone else would laugh at my skin. To add to the repertoire, a guy in the schoolbus once said to me You look like a Dalmatian dog.” At the time, that comment alone was all it took to make me overthink how I saw myself. Maybe he’s right, I am ugly. I never saw my skin as a positive thing. My family and close friends would tell me otherwise, but how was I supposed to feel?

Everything changed when I met a friend of a friend who has vitiligo. Her skin is more of an olive tone, lighter than me, but her spots are so vibrant and visible. They were more spread out than mine. We went to the beach together and she wanted to show me that it wasn’t too bad walking on the beach; she wanted to show me that others around me would not react the way I’d imagine.

Another person who aided in my change of heart was British photographer, Brock Elbank. When I was studying abroad in Europe, I did a photoshoot with him and that experience changed the way I acted towards my own vitiligo. I was shocked when he said: “It’s funny because everyone who has vitiligo thinks everyone else’s vitiligo pattern is beautiful, but think theirs isn’t.” Learning that so many of his models felt the way I did, reassured me that I wasn’t alone.

Recently, I uploaded this picture on my Instagram and it took a great deal of will power to post. I like my skin more now, but I’ve always struggled with my legs because that’s where most of my vitiligo is.

MIGA Blog- Mary at sea showing her vitiligo

My story with vitiligo is never-ending because with each year that passes a different challenge arises but I don’t regret the struggle because it has gotten me to who I am now. Looking back, I could have saved myself some time wasted on feeling the way I did. Just look at how the world has changed! Winnie Harlow is a supermodel. So many beautiful Instagram role models and influencers are changing perceptions on the regular. It’s time we see our own skin and flaws, whatever they may be, as beautiful!

Photo credit: Brock Elbank

Comments

  • Posted by Hilary on

    Recovering Stolen Crypto Assets Made Easier with Captain WebGenesis.

    Fast Contact:
    WhatsApp. (+170131)4 2(729),
    Email. (Captainwebgenesis @ hackermail. com),…
    Cryptocurrency Scam Recovery || Recover Lost Funds || Crypto Investment Gone Wrong. Hire A Hacker To Get Back Your Stolen Crypto Coins || Hire A Hacker To Recover Lost Or Stolen Bitcoin/Nft || Help I Can’t Access My USDT Account, Seems I Got Hacked || Bitcoin Recovery Expert Needed.

    Should you need support reclaiming your lost or stolen bitcoin, require help with a wrong password, trying to obtain cryptocurrency transferred to the wrong wallet address, or believe your wallet has been compromised, get in touch with Captain WebGenesis. I lost over $89k after participating in a phony binary scam. The money I fraudulently lost has been recovered thanks to the superb work of Captain WebGenesis. Working with Captain WebGenesis, Crypto Recovery Expert is trustworthy.

    Learn More; Www.captainwebgenesis. com

  • Posted by Tim Gerart on

    I was one of the victims of a crypto scam that went on for a month wiping me clean of my entire bank accounts, I had invested the sum of $243,300 into the trading platform called cixprotrader and the account manager assured me of profits worth $900,700.
    I couldn’t realize quickly how dubious their claim was until I was wiped out completely. I was going through a lot of challenges and pain until my childhood friend told me about Firmwall Cyber Security Service, a professional crypto recovery and cybersecurity company with a 100% successful recovery rate, I didn’t hesitate to contact them immediately and provided them with all the information they needed to begin my crypto recovery process, and to my surprise, Firmwall Cyber Security was able to recover my crypto and blocked all access from these con men, closed their accounts and reported them to the relevant authorities. I’m truly grateful for their services and I highly recommend them. Firmwall Cyber Security is providing a service that will enable victims of crypto scams like us to recover our money without any hassle. Their approach is very professional and effective.

    CONTACT INFORMATION OF FIRMWALL CYBER SECURITY
    E-mail = Firmwallcyber@techie.com
    Web = ( https://firmwallcyber.wixsite.com/firmwall)
    Whats App = (+ 1 937 542 0667)

  • Posted by donray78 donray on

    Buy fake USD (WHATSAPP : +1(725) 867-9567) Buy Fake Cad,EUR,GBP,Buy Real and fake Passports, ID Cards, Driver’s License,SSN, Birth Certificates, Death Certificates, Residence Permits,Marriage License, Divorce Papers,
    (WHATSAPP : +1(318) 406-1272) Work Permits, Utility Bills, Toefl, Ielts, Diplomas, Certificates,Gun license, Passport Visas, Entry and Exit Stamps, Jobs, CV, Counterfeit Notes, Change all identity documents, Clear criminal records and many others..
    Buy fake swiss(CHF)
    Telegram: @Scottbowers9

    For more information:
    https://buyfakecurrency.com
    signal: +1(725) 867-9567)

    New Identity Package: How to change your identity completely and restart a new life. No criminal records.
    Best way to regain your freedom with a full new identity. New id card, new passport, new driver’s license,
    new birth certificate, new diploma, marriage certificate, ssn card with good score

    NOTE: We will show you proof of your passport done before delivery.

    https://buyfakecurrency.com is the best and useful Counterfeit and Document producers. Work with us!

    CONTACT US:
    E-Mail: scottbowers44@yahoo.com
    WHATSAPP : +1(318) 406-1272
    signal : +1(725) 867-9567)
    Website: https://www.counterfeitdocsforsale.com/

Leave a comment