Self-Talk and Vitiligo

By: Mary Aquino

Honestly who cares about others’ opinion of you? Your skin does not define you. You are beautiful. These are all phrases I wish I told myself back when my vitiligo began to spread and became a lot more visible than just small spots. When I was 9 years old, I was sitting in the computer lab with my friend and I showed her a new spot that had shown up after a fall but didn’t seem to leave. Her words never left my mind: “Wow, that’s kind of cool.” See, once I hit middle school, I didn’t associate myself with those words. I closed myself off from meeting new people and participating in big events for school, especially the ones outdoors. I went from being an extrovert to an introvert.

Now to make things worse I lived in Miami, Florida which means summer all year round. My classmates wanted to go to pool parties, the beach, play sports and I felt weird and out-of-place because I looked different. In the back of my head, I knew it was just skin and it wasn’t that bad but I wanted to look beautiful to others. Afterall, Miami is all about beauty and beach bodies, and I didn’t fit into any of these categories.

Instead these were the thoughts that flooded my mind. Would boys like me? Can I go to the pool? No, I look ugly and everyone else would laugh at my skin. To add to the repertoire, a guy in the schoolbus once said to me You look like a Dalmatian dog.” At the time, that comment alone was all it took to make me overthink how I saw myself. Maybe he’s right, I am ugly. I never saw my skin as a positive thing. My family and close friends would tell me otherwise, but how was I supposed to feel?

Everything changed when I met a friend of a friend who has vitiligo. Her skin is more of an olive tone, lighter than me, but her spots are so vibrant and visible. They were more spread out than mine. We went to the beach together and she wanted to show me that it wasn’t too bad walking on the beach; she wanted to show me that others around me would not react the way I’d imagine.

Another person who aided in my change of heart was British photographer, Brock Elbank. When I was studying abroad in Europe, I did a photoshoot with him and that experience changed the way I acted towards my own vitiligo. I was shocked when he said: “It’s funny because everyone who has vitiligo thinks everyone else’s vitiligo pattern is beautiful, but think theirs isn’t.” Learning that so many of his models felt the way I did, reassured me that I wasn’t alone.

Recently, I uploaded this picture on my Instagram and it took a great deal of will power to post. I like my skin more now, but I’ve always struggled with my legs because that’s where most of my vitiligo is.

MIGA Blog- Mary at sea showing her vitiligo

My story with vitiligo is never-ending because with each year that passes a different challenge arises but I don’t regret the struggle because it has gotten me to who I am now. Looking back, I could have saved myself some time wasted on feeling the way I did. Just look at how the world has changed! Winnie Harlow is a supermodel. So many beautiful Instagram role models and influencers are changing perceptions on the regular. It’s time we see our own skin and flaws, whatever they may be, as beautiful!

Photo credit: Brock Elbank

Comments

  • Posted by Dr.lenonjack on

    Buy 100% undetectable counterfeit money grade AAA+ | SSD CHEM | CLONED CARDS FOR SALE (infodocuments4gmail.com)WhatsApp: +237673528224

    We are the best and Unique producer of HIGH QUALITY Undetectable Counterfeit Banknotes, with over a billion
    of our products circulating around the world. we produce genuine dollar, British pound and euro banknotes with different serial numbers on each account. We stock semi-finished banknote bases that have already been engraved and designed on the front and back of the various currencies of each denomination. We need a partner with whom we will work discreetly to complete the production of our semi-finished banknote substrates and make them legal tender that we will discuss in a personal meeting if you agree to work with us. We will schedule an appointment to show you everything and discuss all details and prepare samples so you can pass the test to confirm authenticity. All notes will pass important test such as ultraviolet light, pencil test,

    All Inquiries Below

    Email: infodocuments4@gmail.com

    WhatsApp : +1314 866 9771

    WhatsApp: +237673528224

    Telegram ID : @Loyaltyco

    Our counterfeit bank notes are produced taking into consideration all the security features to give them the top quality customers desire. They pass the pen test, UV light test, and possess hologram features, water points.
    Our bills can be used in the following places.

    -Self service machines
    -Markets
    -Festivals / other busy places
    -Bars
    -Shops
    -Taxi
    -Restaurant
    -Snackbar
    -Casinos and all other places of these type

    BUY CLONED CARDS AVAILABLE AT AFFORDABLE PRICES

    CLONED CARDS ********* 
    ***********CLONED CARDS ********* 
    ***********CLONED CARDS ********* 
    ***********CLONED CARDS ********* 

    clones card for sale with high balance instantly dispatched once order is confirmed stop being broke and start shopping everyday

    Clone cards are spammed credit cards with clean funds. clone cards are available for cash out in ATMs🏧,Gas stations⛽️,POS Our clone card comes with ATM pin for easy cash outs ™️

    HOW DOES IT WORK?💻💳
    We use credit card filters to obtain magnetic stripe information of a credit or debit card. The information received is not limited to credit card password, numbers, CVV and expiration date. This information comes in the form of pin (101 or 201) dump. now we use the MSR printer to put received information on a blank card
    A blank card that contains information received using credit card filters are called cloned cards. You can use them for in-store shopping (card) or cash payment from an ATM
    Shipping is always smooth and safe because the card is always hidden in a book and wrapped neatly to look like a gift. it’s always safe buying your cloned cards from us.

    CLONED CARDS ********* 

    LOW BALNACE

    200= balance of £ € $ 2k
    300= balance of £ € $ 3k
    400= balance of £ € $ 4k
    500= balance of £ € $ 5k
    600= balance of £ € $ 6k
    800= balance of £ € $ 8k
    900= balance of £  € $ 9k

    HIGH BALANCE

    1k= balance of £ € $ 10k
    2k= balance of £ € $ 20k
    3k= balance of £ € $ 30k
    4k= balance of £ € $ 40k
    5k= balance of £ € $ 60k
    7k= balance of £ € $ 90k

    All Inquiries Below

    Email: infodocuments4@gmail.com

    WhatsApp : +1 314 866 9771

    WhatsApp: +237673528224

    Telegram ID : @Loyaltyco

  • Posted by Mavis Wanczyk on

    Being the winner of a multi-million-dollar lottery certainly is a life-changing event for almost every single lottery winner. My name is Mavis Wanczyk from Chicopee, Massachusetts and I want to use this medium to tell you how I became the famous Powerball lottery winner of $758 million (£591m). I know many people would wonder how I had won the lottery. Would you believe me if I told you that I did it with spell casting? I met this famous spell caster known as Doctor Odunga and he was the one who did it for me. As shocking as it was to me, my famous comment to the press was “ I’m going to go and hide in my bed.” Never did I believe that Dr. Odunga would make me wealthy overnight. If you want to have your chance of winning and becoming very wealthy just like me, contact Chief Dr. Odunga at odungaspelltemple@outlook.com OR Email: odungaspelltemple@gmail.com and WHATS-APP HIM at +2348167159012 and you will be lucky. Thanks for reading and hope to see you at the top

    FIX THE FOLLOWING PROBLEMS TO ALL ACROSS THE
    GLOBE ON:

    Get your ex back spell Lottery Spell Love/Reunion Spell Pregnancy Spell Protection Spell Freedom From Prison Spell Marriage spell Killing/Revenge spell Healing/Cure spell

    Contact him for any of these today at:
    EMAIL: odungaspelltemple@gmail.com OR Call and WHATS-APP HIM +2348167159012

  • Posted by Nancy Creagor on

    Hi everyone, My name is Nancy Creager, and I have good news to give about the trustworthy and effective service that we can all rely on! I’m not sure how many people are having trouble with crypto-related issues and likely mistrust their ability to find practical solutions. RECOVERY HACKER101 Expert is without a doubt the best recovery service provider because of their speedy money recovery capabilities. I lost almost $185,000 USD due to online bitcoin theft, and they helped me recover that amount. To reach them, send an email to recoveryhacker101@gmail.com.

Leave a comment